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Everything Lost to the Light

by Okay Alright

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1.
When I let you in my mind I lie and say I’m fine But I hold these lovely memories And they define our lives I’m not sure where to be It’s always hard to leave Now I am letting go of love When its the only thing I need It haunts me And it hurts me maybe love it cannot cure me I see you in everything Through every change I need you in my life Its written on every page from the bottom of my heart you were a light in the dark And I see you in her Atleast I wanted to at first But it haunts me And it hurts me Maybe love cannot cure me And I see you in me Two kids on Halloween In a fur coat and a striped dress You showed me what I need Everything lost to the light returned
2.
I’m too tired to open my eyes The sun is rising over 355 I Just wanna get to the city tonight You can be sad if you want to But I just don’t see how it helps you Yeah we felt so alive On a cold winter night Im moving home for the summer The last one that we’ll spend together This place was holding me down When I was younger The house looks so different now Since I got taller None of those poems are for you But no 1 can speak them like U do Darling I wish you knew what I knew I’m no longer locking my bedroom Just Hoping 1 night you’ll walk through Show me the ghosts you believe still haunt you Everyone needs love I’ve got some to give But it’s never enough Everyone needs love I’ve got some to give But it’s never enough Im moving home for the summer The last one that we’ll spend together This place was holding me down When I was younger The house looks so different now Since We got taller Now we’re Lying In roads Because were scared to go home
3.
sunrise 04:04
When the whole world is asleep Oh except for you and me I remember hurting you And it still hurts me too Im scared that the Things that I think In my head are real Or at least it feels that way to me I watched the sunrise this morning from my room through the trees It made me feel okay You texted me You said I should get some sleep In the coldest winter i had ever seen You spoke to me Like sickness was poetry Like something better was underneath Like I’m just trying to get out of this place I wanna get out of this place Im scared that the Things that I think In my head are real Or at least it feels that way to me I watched the sunrise this morning from my room through the trees It made me feel okay You texted me You said I should get some sleep In the coldest winter i had ever seen
4.
Darling please stay alive I’ve been waiting up all night I am breathing in your light As we talk until the sunrise I really get it There was a time when I wanted to die But I look at you And I see so much light And if you can make it through The summer then Everything will be alright Mistakes that we will make again If you let go then the worry wins There is comfort in every change And it’s ok if your hands get cold and shake I really get it There was a time when I wanted to die But I look at you And I see so much light And if you can get through The summer then Everything will be alright
5.
There was the rain and there was me I listened closely as I fell asleep Who am I to sing anything Who am I to disagree You watch the world stand still in the dark You sat and waited for the sun You don’t have to be anything Darling I am nothing at all It’s not that I don’t Want your love Baby it’s not that at all It’s just these shitty things I feel yeah All this fear and all this guilt And wishing I was someone else baby I don’t think I ever loved being anything Were you ever gonna love me There was the edge and there was me There were a thousand ways to be Back when I was alone I hated everything I just didn’t want To get left out Of my own life Because you weren’t around So darling let’s dance out in the storm Then turn and go back home Yeah tomorrow when it’s done Baby I don’t think I ever loved being anything Were you ever gonna love me
6.
orion 05:11
We’re casting shadows Out to the horizon while the tide is changing And the Sunlight’s almost gone And it covers you in warmth And your hands they are worn darlin let me hold them let the world spin Without us Let the world spin all night And its lookin like Orion Shaping love from nothing I was Blinded by my father But You restored my sight I think I met an angel Through the ocean Through the oceans eyes Ive been searching Darling I’ve been searching for another person Who believes I am worth it Do you believe I’m worth it cause I believe you’re perfect yeah I believe you’ve earned this I believe you deserve it let the world spin Without us Let the world spin all night And its lookin like Orion Shaping love from nothing Blinded by my father You restored my sight I think I met an angel Through the ocean through the oceans eyes
7.
good light 03:44
I was Wasted in a good light This is Goodnight my dear In the morning When we wake up We will make up In the sun What I saw In your eyes The night that you cried In my arms You and me, alive You were covered in the moonlight Until sunrise And you Spoke softly In poems Meant for no one But us All I want For your life Is that someday you will find you are loved love is Patient Love is kind Love is knowing When it’s time To come home Will you Come home Won’t you Come home Tonight
8.
orcutt 03:22
I see your pain When we stay up late And I sit next to you But we never touch I wanna say I understand The way you feel I wanna change I wanna be what you think I am And that’s real I don’t know what else is anymore Or how I feel I keep boarding up an invisible door Tell me how was your day Did you feel as good as you deserve It’s out of your control right now But you can learn You kept me awake all night Thinking about The way you changed my life You’ll be in my dreams tonight And that’s real I don’t know what else is anymore Or how I feel I keep boarding up an invisible door Well it’s time I step outside I hope it’s nice I hope you’re ready for your life
9.
Moon light bending unsuspecting fills air Like love when you meet it But you were different You had listened To my white noise Silent grandeur The hill at half-light Singing half lies That love is something to lean on I know nothing Barely living Clinging to the space behind you That you aren’t filling You are always changing Some time ago It was a place for dancing Feeling worthless Only hurt us a passing evening in the summer But I can’t slow down Life has chosen For us to be the amusers And so I finally believed her
10.
I don’t think I’m better than anyone else In fact I struggle With loving myself But I have seen that it all Comes together love And if you’re working on yourself It just takes time So come on Forgive and don’t let go And don’t block out the Pain cause it helps you grow Its been a long night and im tired and I wanna go home Its been a long night in the city And I wanna go home Cause Self love isn’t selfish I thought that you had learned this By now When you feel like life is pointless I hope you know you can get through it Cause I know I’ve been hiding in this room And I’ve gotta get out Don’t wanna spend anymore time Judging myself I’ll ride my bike to the ocean Tryna come down Its not so easy to let go without you around So come on darling Forgive and don’t let go I promise there’s a high After the low It’s been a long night im tired And I wanna go home Its been a long night in the city And I wanna go home Cause life can get so scary But the fear is temporary My love I know you will find your purpose I promise you deserve it Right now
11.
I see sunlight In your eyes Let them shine In my dreams You are dancing And we are laughing And our lives Quietly pass us These Moments outlast us You showed me how fast love Can appear This is our year I might finally Let go of what haunts me Learning to love me For who I am When you are happy Words cant distract me Our bodies are wrapping Into one With a feeling that changes The river that takes us In a current so warm and Enchanting A love everlasting I see sunlight In your eyes Let them shine In my dreams You are dancing And we are laughing All our lives
12.
(returns) 02:40
There is a gentle restlessness that settles behind his eyes when he talks about something he loves And it makes you feel safe in dreams comfort in a hunger that is totally pure I once drifted out to sea as I fell asleep And when I woke up It was only blue all around me At first I was scared But I remembered what you said as I laid back and looked at the stars everything lost to the light returns
13.
You are wired for struggle But you’re worthy of love And It’s good to feel this vulnerable Cause it means that you’re alive You are whole hearted, my darling You wanna feel connection Darlin I wanna let you in Yeah I know that tired feeling Like you’re never really see But you cannot pick and choose The feelings that you numb You might not realize it But You are always enough Blame is just discharging pain Oh Blame is just a losers game You are wired for struggle But you’re worthy of love And It’s good to feel this vulnerable Cause it means that you’re alive You are whole hearted my darling You are wired for struggle But you’re worthy of this love And It’s good to feel this vulnerable Cause it means that you’re alive You are whole hearted my darling
14.
In hindsight It was the low lights It was the gardens at Midnight Where I found love then I grew up Feeling fond of My new life It was playing records In the rainy weather wearing borrowed sweaters reading love letters That made me love where I was what an unlikely cause It was playing records in the rainy weather wearing borrowed sweaters reading love letters It was playing records in the rainy weather wearing borrowed sweaters reading love letters It was voicing someones feelings It was loving without thinking In hindsight It was long nights It was the slow dance in the headlights
15.
Blown to the ground But You bloom as you are You said I look pretty good When I don’t look in the mirror Just my voice in the dark When your body is near I feel like you really know me this time I told you I was scared Of how it would feel to have to do this alone to have to grow as I’m meant It’s a shot in the dark I don’t wanna pretend That it seems fine Or that it’s better this time You made it true That something good Could tear me in two

credits

released March 13, 2020

All songs written and recorded by Brycen Waitkus 2017-2019 (Between bedrooms and dorm rooms in Chicago and San Luis Obispo)

Additional recording by: Rick Spataro (Albany, NY)

Produced by: Brycen Waitkus, Rick Spataro

Mastered by: Matt Norcott (Routine Espresso)

Brycen Waitkus: Vocals, Acoustic & Electric Guitar, Banjo, Bass, Piano, Harmonica, Organ, Percussion, Ebow, Melodica, Glockenspiel

Rick Spataro: Drums, Bass, Synth, Orion Harmonies

Jonnie Baker: Bowed Guitar, Electric guitar, MOOG, Harmonies (1,5)

Shannon Simbulan: Sunset Tattoo vocals

Corinne Lykins: Good Light harmonies

Paige Allen: Orion harmonies

(Returns) Voice mail recordings: Tim Jorgensen, Ashlee Waitkus, Carson Miller, Brock Pierce, Cameron Young, Emily Franke

(Returns) poem: Elizabeth Svach

Special thank you to Elizabeth for helping me grow, always inspiring me, and showing me that everything lost to the light returns. Thank you to my amazingly supportive family, especially my mom, for believing in me and pushing me to become the person I want to be. Thank you to Cam for being my amazing and reliable best friend even from so far away. Thank you to Carson, Tim, and John for making me feel like I belong, and making 2019 the greatest year of my life. Thank you to Ben Peterselli for making me want to always be interested, and to be the best version of myself that I can. Thank you to Willa for teaching me what it means to care for someone.

Thank you Ari, Carter, Frank, Brock, Shannon, Jonnie, Emily, Sarah, and all the other musicians and friends that constantly inspire me and enrich my musical vision. Thank you to Rick and Paige for hosting me and putting so much effort into making my vision for this album a reality. And especially thank you to everyone that has listened to, supported, and connected with my music, it means the world to me :)

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